If Only
If only I had the wisdom to know what was to come,
I'd of wrapped my arms around you and squeezed till your toes went numb.
I'd of said how much I love you and how much you mean to me, Unfortunately the future was something I could not see.
If I'd of known what was to come I would have stopped it there's no doubt,
I would have changed the future and how that awful night played out.
I would have ran into the street and stopped you in your car,
I would have insisted you come in, I'd be the stubborn one by far.
And when the time came for you to leave,
I'd of wrapped my arms around your waist and fell down on my knees.
I would have found a reason you could not go home,
If only the future was something I had known.
I always play this in my head, all the things I would have tried,
How I could have changed what happened and all the tears I've cried.
But this is how it happened, there's nothing we can do,
Just go on with our second Christmas loving and missing you.
It hit me hard
I love and miss you so much Jimmy, more than words can say.
Love Jamie
Well it happened today the truth hit me again,
It hit me so hard like a fist to the chin,
Yeah, it hit me today it hit me again,
The fact that your life has come to an end.
I seen a video of you, I watched it with mom,
I cried and I missed you, you've been gone way to long.
I got in my car I cried all the way home,
That's when it happens, when I'm sitting alone.
Watching that video, there's no fear your so brave,
And that kind of spirit can't be broken won't cave.
Thinking back on that day, one moment in time,
Back on that day and that senseless crime.
I don't know what to say, it's a lump in my throat,
It's tears in my eyes, it's my heart that is broke.
Lives have been altered, nothings the same,
Tears can start flowing just from hearing your name.
Our lives are so different, they are forever changed,
Living without you Jimmy, well it just is so strange.
Above all of that something’s still remain,
They tie us together like links in a chain.
You still our my family, you still are my friend,
And this kind of love goes on with no end.
Love, Jamie
My best friend
The night she told me you were gone
I thought surely I couldn’t carry on
I miss your voice night and day
Oh how I wish I could see your face
I walk the streets and think of when
The laughter we shared will never end
And how I wish I told you then
You were truly my best friend
I thought of a thousand things we could do
But your gone now, you see its to late to
But maybe out in the green grassy field
I can pick a flower and begin to heal
I know the day will come and then
That surely I shall see your face again
Until tomorrow my best friend
When I can tell you how much I love then
Lay down now beneath the wind
Sleep, sleep until tomorrow begins.
Written by Carrie 2007
Jimmy
Jimmy He was a soldier right to the end, This is what I've been told by so many of his friends. He has always had my back said so many others, He wasn't just our friend, he was our brother. His priorities in life, his daughter and mother. He was a tough guy right from the start, He was a tough guy with a great big heart. And as he lay dying he wasn't scared, I believe my dad led him right up those stairs. He was amazing, the nurses said. But the doctors couldn't save him, the wound was to bad. Who other than my Jimmy could hang in there so long? With a hole in his heart.God this is so wrong.
I Love You Jimmy,Mom
Laughter and Tears
How can my heart break for so long, yet keep beating as life goes on?
How can my eyes cry so many tears it seems like I’ve cried for one hundred years.
I’m told this will get better as time moves on yet I still can’t believe that you are gone.
Time for me is standing still, I believe it forever will.
My life is in tatters, my heart feels the same, only another mom could know this pain.
The mom’s who have come into my life are special and so dear it’s their love and understanding that help to keep me here.
We have formed a bond through laughter and tears, a bond that will hold strong through the rest of our years.
Our sons and daughters watch over us we know, their angel wings surround us wherever we go. As hours turn to days, days to years we will remember our angels through laughter and tears.
Detected to all the wonderful moms who have come into my life.
Jimmy’s Mom
Shirley
It' been so long
It's been so long, yet it's flown right by,
It's supposed to get easier but still we cry.
It comes and it goes, it's a little then to much,
It's a break in your heart, to your stomach a punch.
It's a missing link,
It's a broken chain,
It's a family left with so much pain.
It's a what if here,
It's a how come there,
It's hoping we can reach you with love in a prayer.
It's living our lives and trying to deal,
It's trying to do that thing they call heal.
It's living in a world where this can go on,
It's living with out you, it just is so wrong.
It's knowing in spirit your still all around,
It's knowing from heaven your smiling looking down.
It's knowing that though your not here for us to see or to touch,
Your with us in our hearts and you love us very much.
It's knowing that though your life on earth is through,
You want us to live a happy one in honoring you.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! Jamie
